Sometimes, I get stuck on a feeling. I can’t quite pinpoint what it is, or what it means, but the feeling is there like a distant memory that sticks to my brain like glue. It’s like, I can’t shake the feeling, but it exists, so maybe I should acknowledge it. Then again, the feeling doesn’t mean anything, so why give it a second thought?
We all have ideas. Dreams that don’t turn out the way we planned. Some things just aren’t meant to be and that’s okay. Not every idea is meant to become a reality. Not every feeling means something. Sometimes feelings are just that–feelings.
Unless it does mean something. In which case, I should think about it…maybe just for a minute. No, wait…the idea is crazy. But, I just have a feeling that maybe, just maybe it isn’t, so maybe I should give it a chance. Should I take a chance?
It’s quite possible I’ve lost my mind.
So now I’m wondering about this feeling. This feeling I get when I think. Not about everything, but some things. One thing in particular has been on my mind these days.
When I think about the could have been’s, or what if’s of my life, I get the feeling maybe it’s time to change some things. Not to change how things were, but how they are now.
I get stuck on this feeling that maybe there is more, and while the past was meant to be as it was, the present holds more promise.
Sometimes feelings are just feelings and that’s all there is.
But, there has to be more than this.
More to life.
Who are we now? Who do we want to be?
I guess we’ll just wait and see.
What this feeling means.
Hi! My name is Rachel. I love to write. Write about life, love, and reflect on how the past builds the future. Mostly, I love to tell stories because I believe there is something about stories that brings the world closer together. You can check out some of my writing reflections here at Rachel Writes.