There are so many “what if’s” in life. With the numerous paths available, it’s hard not to wonder what could have been if things had been different…If another path was chosen…If a certain path was never walked at all.
I like to think of it as infinite possibilities spread out before me. Each decision I make sends me on a different path. Maybe some of these paths intersect and no matter what, I’ll still end up in the same place in the end. Maybe some of my choices take me in a completely different direction which changes the course of my life; for either the better or worse only time will tell. Or quite possibly I’ll never know what could have been. It’s the haunting question of “what if.” What if I could go back and do (insert life choice) over? How would my life be different now? Or would it be the same?
I can never go back and change the past. I can only wonder about the “what if.”
I kind of like the idea of the multiverse theory; the concept that there is an infinite number of realities in which each decision we didn’t make is played out.
In a strange way, I think the idea of a parallel universe is comforting. To think that maybe in a different world, or in another life, things could be different.
Like maybe I’m not single (ha, yeah right), or maybe my childhood dream of being a rockstar came true (ha, yeah right!), or maybe I’m living my best life tucked away in some cozy loft in New York City, writing my next bestselling novel for the world to read (haha…I can dream, right?).
I guess the point I’m making is that there is no point to life. I mean, there is, but we have to make our own purpose. Or maybe it’s about accepting purpose. Finding God. Finding hope. Peace. Life is always about looking toward the future. But I also want to live in the here and the now. Is that so bad?
And now I’m rambling and probably not making sense. The question of “what if” is just that. What if (insert question here)? It’s the same thing as wondering “what if the sky wasn’t blue, or what if I grew up in a different city, or what if the world wasn’t crazy…”
The answer is simple: life would be different. Not necessarily different in a bad or good way, just different. And I think it’s okay to accept that the choices we do or don’t make have differing outcomes. And it’s okay to wonder what would have happened, but don’t dwell on it. Because as silly as it may sound, I do believe everything happens for a reason and what’s meant to be simply will be.
Sure, I think we can lead our lives in a certain direction and the rest will follow, but I also think that if something is seriously meant to happen, it will. It’s as simple and complicated as that.
So, if you think about it that way, wondering about the “what if’s” in life is kind of pointless.
What if, what if is just another way of saying…not meant for me?
Hi! My name is Rachel. I love to write. Write about life, love, and reflect on how the past builds the future. Mostly, I love to tell stories because I believe there is something about stories that brings the world closer together. You can check out some of my writing reflections here at Rachel Writes.