Maybe I’m Exactly Where I’m Meant to Be

Embrace the journey. Life is not the destination.

I’ll be honest, though it’s probably pretty obvious if you’ve been keeping up with my blog…I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing either. This life is pretty crazy, isn’t it?

There are days when I think, I’m finally getting my life together and the future seems clear, but then the next day it all seems to fall apart again and I think to myself, “is this all there is?”

I believe everything happens for a reason. What’s meant to be will be. That where I am is exactly where I’m supposed to be.

I believe God gives us direction and His will is above all. That doesn’t mean we don’t have free will, but that God’s plan is ultimately greater than ours. When I think about that, when I realize that my life is not fully mine, it gives me peace.

But then I have a second thought.

What if I’m wrong?

What if some things just happen because life isn’t fair and it doesn’t always make sense? What if “meant to be” is a choice? What if God’s direction has to be understood first? What if I’m still not understanding the path He wants me to walk? What if I’m not where I’m supposed to be at all?

What if my life is all my own and I’m alone?

Well shoot. Let’s go back to thinking everything happens for a reason and God is in control.

At least I can live with that reality.

I guess I’m trying to understand God’s will for my life. Because sometimes I think God wants something for me, but it turns out maybe it was actually my will. There are times when I think God was sending me a message, but maybe it was a different message entirely and I interpreted it according to what I wanted without thinking that maybe His plan and mine are not the same.

I guess I’m trying to understand God. Not the God that I want to exist, but the one who does. I’m trying to understand my will versus God’s. I’m trying to recognize His voice over my dreams.

I don’t have all the answers. I’m still trying to figure it out. All I know for sure is there is a God who loves us and has a plan for our lives.

But what happens if we don’t embrace it? What happens if we can’t understand His plan?

Are we all a little lost on this journey of life?

So maybe I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. Or maybe I’m just confused. Maybe I should just pray for more wisdom.

But I have faith that one day I’ll be exactly where I belong. And I’m not talking about this life. This life will no doubt have its ups and downs; filled with joy and sorrow. I have faith that this life will lead me to the next. Which leads into a whole other discussion that I don’t have the answers for either. But I just live off of blind faith. Isn’t that all anyone does? Faith that in the end, everything works out, and there is light which overcomes darkness.

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Hi! My name is Rachel. I love to write. Write about life, love, and reflect on how the past builds the future. Mostly, I love to tell stories because I believe there is something about stories that brings the world closer together. You can check out some of my writing reflections here at Rachel Writes.

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