Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong era. Anyone else feel like that? I have such an old-soul and in the craziness that is life today, it often feels like I was meant for another time. A simpler time. Honestly, my dream is a slow life living on a farm somewhere with land and animals and probably a wheat field or something and an old type writer, or better yet paper and a pencil, and no social media to mess with my mind.
But that’s not the time we live in. And I think there’s a reason why we’re all alive here and now.
Because if this year has taught me anything it’s that God has a plan.
A year ago I wasn’t where I wanted to be. I felt like I wasn’t enough and like I was failing at living.
I guess it took me a good year to learn that it wasn’t about my “failing.” It was about finding the right direction.
I had to learn how to step out in faith and begin to create the life I wanted to live. And to trust God to guide my steps. Even if it didn’t always make sense.
This year I took those steps. Did the things that scared me because I knew through this fear I would grow. Learned it’s about finding what makes you happy because what is the point of living if we can’t find joy in life?
I learned that no one is going to drag you outside and force you to live your life. So, this year I forced the scared kind of insecure girl I used to be, to become a woman who stands up and steps out in faith because it doesn’t matter if people think she’s a little insane. Doesn’t matter if she gets rejected in the process. And it doesn’t matter if it’s scary and uncomfortable because life can be scary and uncomfortable. I’ve learned it’s those scary and uncomfortable moments that serve as a reminder we’re still alive.
I forced myself to believe that God did have a plan. And now I see that He does. I still don’t fully understand it, but I know I’m living it out. All those times life didn’t work out the way I thought it would or even should were an opportunity to learn and grow in life and in faith.
Looking back on this past year, I can see now how each step I took prepared me for what was next. God’s plan at work.
Yes, this year has been twisted and heartbreaking, However, this year has also been a testimony of faith and how God will work all things out for good. Even when we can’t see it. Even when we don’t understand.
I know that sometimes life doesn’t go the way I plan and if this year has taught me anything, it’s that there’s probably a reason why. Even if I can’t see it then. Maybe I’ll never know. But I have faith that God’s plan is better than my own.
I believe this because I’ve lived it.
My life isn’t perfect, and I know my journey is nowhere near done, but I know where I’m going now. Well, at least I have more of an idea. And I’m not afraid of the journey to get there. Because the journey there is the rest of my life.
If this year has taught me anything it’s that it’s okay to take chances, it’s okay to be afraid, it’s okay to be embarrassed, and it’s okay to be myself.
All of this to say; life is crazy, but it’s good. So, I’ll leave you with one final thought: The most important thing I’ve learned this year.
The most important thing I’ve learned this year is how to rise everyday and choose faith over fear.
Hi! My name is Rachel. I love to write. Write about life, love, and reflect on how the past builds the future. Mostly, I love to tell stories because I believe there is something about stories that brings the world closer together. You can check out some of my writing reflections here at Rachel Writes.